A Nightmare

hmmmm.......here i am sitting at my computer thinking of something to say. i dont know if i should post up another angry note showing my angst or if i should post about the fact that i still dont sleep at night.......i guess.......for me.......life's just been hard lately. i know it's kinda selfish to be complaining about my problems when there are people out there who have had a harder time than me but today this is how i feel. basicly my brain takes turns being angry and sad. half of the time im angry at the world. trying to blame my problems on somebody else, saying "it's your fault this happened to me" but in reality i just need something to take my anger out on. half of the time i just sit down in a chair thinking about what went wrong, if there was something i could have done to keep this from happening, and what i can do in the future to prevent it from happening again........sleepless nights still haunt me and my dreams remind me of our times together. i guess it's a good thing though, but sometimes it just leaves me crying in my bed asking "why"........but the future is a better place. and there are only 28 days left until my nightmare is over.