Giving Up

you know, i thought about never writing on me xanga ever again. i would just leave it alone and maybe it would make the pain go away or something. then i realized that i'm an idiot so i figured i'd give life another shot. so besides the new hole in my wall, the pillow drenched in tears, my killer headache, and my renewed love in all things evil i think i'm gonna be okay. i just needed to slam my face into something hard, slap myself a couple of times and now i'm fine.......sorta. so while some people have given up on me i'm willing to continue this questionable life of mine.........hmm, now what to do?