J-E-N-O-V-A Birth
This is a re-call from my Xanga. I'd really rather not have to back and look at my stuff on Xanga, but I still wanted to keep my posts from it. I'm not good at writing in diaries (mostly because my handwriting is crap) so I use this as my alternative. Now, naturally, this is different because all of you can read it, but hey, what's the point if people can't see what's happening in my life? I'm not very good at expressing how I feel verbally. So, without further ado
And no, I don't expect you to read through all of these. It's mainly so that I can print all of these out someday (It's easier to mass-print posts on Blogger than it is on Xanga)
I actually already have (and have had for a while) another blog named J-E-N-O-V-A Life that Aerith keeps safe for me. It's just a Word file that I keep as a personal journal. Sometimes when you have problems simply writing those problems down helps you get over them, but at the same time sometimes you don't want people to see what those problems are. That's what that blog is for
I ended where I did because I considered that to be the end of one era and the beginning of a new one. Plus, I was simultaneously writing in my Xanga and my Blogger so a lot of my early posts in the One Winged Angel are the same as the last ones here. Anywho, enjoy
-David
mood: Mistake #2
Songs: Here We Are- Breaking Benjamin
"I can't erase the stupid things I say"
Get Out Alive-Three Days Grace
"Don't put your life in someones hands, they're bound to steal it away. Don't hide your mistakes 'cuz they'll find you, burn you"
The Small Print-Muse
"Take, take all you need, and i'll compensate your greed with broken hearts. Sell, I'll sell your memories for 15 pounds per year, but just the good days"
Stupid-Sarah McLachlan
"Night, lift up the shades. Let in the brilliant light of morning. But steady there now, for I am weak and starving for mercy. sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong. It's all I can do to hang on, to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes. How stupid could I be? A simpleton could see that you're no good for me. Love has made me a fool. It set me on fire and watched as I floundered, unable to speak"
Sweet Surrender-Sarah McLachlan
"It doesn’t mean much. It doesn’t mean anything at all. The life I’ve left behind me is a cold room. I’ve crossed the last line from where I can’t return. Where every step I took in faith betrayed me and led me from my home"
How To Save A Life-The Fray
"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life"
No Surprise-Theory Of A Deadman
"Friday is when you left me
So I'll drink myself to sleep
And Sunday is when I'll wake up
Not to remember a thing
My friends all say the same thing
I don't know my new girl too well
I know
That all this lying gets to me
And no one seems to give a shit
The way
She talks to every guy in the bar
I guess
It should've raised some kind of alarm
Who'd ever think I'd go in and doubt?
Like all the other guys that you've gone and fucked
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
My friends are mean to me
They say I don't break up too well
They know
All this crying gets to me
And no one seems to give a shit
Well I know you want to
So go on and say it
Just go on and say it
Just go on and say it
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
Friday is when you left me
So I drank myself to sleep
And Sunday I never woke up
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
That that bitch is leavin' me
Going Under-Evanescence
"Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again...
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under"
She Hates Me-Puddle Of Mud
"Met a girl
Thought she was grand
Fell in love
Found out first hand
Went well for a week or two
Then it all came unglued
In a trap
Trap I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
She hates me
Trust
She hates me
La la la love
I tried too hard
And she tore my feelings like I had none
And ripped them away
She was queen for about an hour
After that, her she got sour
She took all I ever had
No sign of guilt
No feeling of bad, no
That's my story
As you see
Learned my lesson
And so did she
Now it's over
And I'm glad
Cuz I'm a fool for all I said"
And no, I don't expect you to read through all of these. It's mainly so that I can print all of these out someday (It's easier to mass-print posts on Blogger than it is on Xanga)
I actually already have (and have had for a while) another blog named J-E-N-O-V-A Life that Aerith keeps safe for me. It's just a Word file that I keep as a personal journal. Sometimes when you have problems simply writing those problems down helps you get over them, but at the same time sometimes you don't want people to see what those problems are. That's what that blog is for
I ended where I did because I considered that to be the end of one era and the beginning of a new one. Plus, I was simultaneously writing in my Xanga and my Blogger so a lot of my early posts in the One Winged Angel are the same as the last ones here. Anywho, enjoy
-David
mood: Mistake #2
Songs: Here We Are- Breaking Benjamin
"I can't erase the stupid things I say"
Get Out Alive-Three Days Grace
"Don't put your life in someones hands, they're bound to steal it away. Don't hide your mistakes 'cuz they'll find you, burn you"
The Small Print-Muse
"Take, take all you need, and i'll compensate your greed with broken hearts. Sell, I'll sell your memories for 15 pounds per year, but just the good days"
Stupid-Sarah McLachlan
"Night, lift up the shades. Let in the brilliant light of morning. But steady there now, for I am weak and starving for mercy. sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong. It's all I can do to hang on, to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes. How stupid could I be? A simpleton could see that you're no good for me. Love has made me a fool. It set me on fire and watched as I floundered, unable to speak"
Sweet Surrender-Sarah McLachlan
"It doesn’t mean much. It doesn’t mean anything at all. The life I’ve left behind me is a cold room. I’ve crossed the last line from where I can’t return. Where every step I took in faith betrayed me and led me from my home"
How To Save A Life-The Fray
"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life"
No Surprise-Theory Of A Deadman
"Friday is when you left me
So I'll drink myself to sleep
And Sunday is when I'll wake up
Not to remember a thing
My friends all say the same thing
I don't know my new girl too well
I know
That all this lying gets to me
And no one seems to give a shit
The way
She talks to every guy in the bar
I guess
It should've raised some kind of alarm
Who'd ever think I'd go in and doubt?
Like all the other guys that you've gone and fucked
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
My friends are mean to me
They say I don't break up too well
They know
All this crying gets to me
And no one seems to give a shit
Well I know you want to
So go on and say it
Just go on and say it
Just go on and say it
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
Friday is when you left me
So I drank myself to sleep
And Sunday I never woke up
Well it ain't no surprise
That you turn me on and leave
It ain't no surprise
That you turn it around on me
I don't know why
You won't give me what I need
It ain't no surprise
That that bitch is leavin' me
That that bitch is leavin' me
Going Under-Evanescence
"Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again...
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under"
She Hates Me-Puddle Of Mud
"Met a girl
Thought she was grand
Fell in love
Found out first hand
Went well for a week or two
Then it all came unglued
In a trap
Trap I can't grip
Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
Then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
She hates me
Trust
She hates me
La la la love
I tried too hard
And she tore my feelings like I had none
And ripped them away
She was queen for about an hour
After that, her she got sour
She took all I ever had
No sign of guilt
No feeling of bad, no
That's my story
As you see
Learned my lesson
And so did she
Now it's over
And I'm glad
Cuz I'm a fool for all I said"
posted by David at 7:07 PM
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