Okay. . . . .

i slept like a brick last night. after 5 hours of tv you would be too.

today we ride! to tuscaloosa! to college! to girls! (i didnt say that) to pick up my sisters stuff! (that's what i meant to say)

the phone is going so im sure to get bored and start calling random people.........or not. maybe ill just listen to my newly bought (free) itunes and play my gameboy..............or ill call.

how the college trip went? more on the ten o'clock news at eleven

Back To Normal?

okay, back to being normal. i promised myself i would stay happy.....

just for you.

so, from now on i'm gonna look like this. (Insert lots of smileys)


and in the words of the second greatest Burger King manager
"I shot the sheriff"

and in the words of the greatest Burger King manager
"hey David, you wanna see if the tail lights for my car still work?"

got off work early, doomed to do school for the next week, heading out to tuscaloosa to help my sister tomorrow, from what i hear it's a beautiful campus, i'm probably going to get lost, and i better get paid extra for doing this.

and i love the "family guy" box set.........funny funny funny stuff

A Nightmare

hmmmm.......here i am sitting at my computer thinking of something to say. i dont know if i should post up another angry note showing my angst or if i should post about the fact that i still dont sleep at night.......i guess.......for me.......life's just been hard lately. i know it's kinda selfish to be complaining about my problems when there are people out there who have had a harder time than me but today this is how i feel. basicly my brain takes turns being angry and sad. half of the time im angry at the world. trying to blame my problems on somebody else, saying "it's your fault this happened to me" but in reality i just need something to take my anger out on. half of the time i just sit down in a chair thinking about what went wrong, if there was something i could have done to keep this from happening, and what i can do in the future to prevent it from happening again........sleepless nights still haunt me and my dreams remind me of our times together. i guess it's a good thing though, but sometimes it just leaves me crying in my bed asking "why"........but the future is a better place. and there are only 28 days left until my nightmare is over.

Goodbye

I fell asleep while watching spike tv after 10 cups of
coffee and you're still not here. Dreaming of a
song when something went wrong, but I can't tell anyone
'cuz no one's here. left me here alone
when i should have stayed home after 10 cups
of coffee i'm thinking. where'd you go?
nobody likes you everyone left you
they're all out without you havin' fun
everyone left you nobody likes you
they're all out without you havin' fun
where'd you go?


i figured i'd give my "friends" one more chance to say that "what i'm doing is wrong" and that "i'm making a bad choice" and all that other crap you like to say. for one, a particular shout out to jason butler. somehow he has the ability to prove my point, make things worse, sumarize the groups feelings about Sarah, and many other things i don't want to say in public. Kudos jason, when the boat starts sinking, shoot it with a shotgun to make it worse. i think that should be you lifes motto from now on. it seems to fit you well.

and for those of you who didnt get what i said last time, about the choice i made.....i'm leaving the group.

c-ya

Aftermath

I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies

contrary to popular belief i am alive but not exactly well. not to steal someone elses idea but last weekend i was wounded twice. one of those wounds has healed. i dont know about the other one. as i said in my last post, i dont want any apologies, right now they dont mean a thing. you might want to just keep your distance cuz im warning you now, one false move and ill probably blow up in your face. in time i may come to forgive you but things will never be the same. ive made a choice. it wasnt a choice i wanted to make but you forced me to when you couldnt accept the way i felt. when you were afraid of losing me to Her you decided to fight back. but it's a fight you cannot win.

I've made my choice, and there's no turning back now...

The Day After

feeling better. kinda in a depressed mood still but life goes on. and no im not going to kill myself. so much left undone (no that wasnt taken from the concert) looking forward to a steady life now.....but still, at the moment i feel empty

ah, enough depression. im applying for classes soon! yup it's official, davids going to UAH this fall.

apologies will be rewarded with harsh comments

Sunday, April 24, 2005

that was the longest set of stairs i ever had to walk on.
i just kept going up and up back to my seat
but when i reached the top
she was gone

i had to find some way to sleep
what i usually do is think of you
but it didnt work this time
that only made me cry

Imagine A Book About Paintball Here

have you ever read this book?



me niether. it just seemed appropriate since everybodys playing paintball today. that and the last name of the guy who wrote it is cooper. SHOUT OUT TO MY BROTHER COOPER!!! ahem, tonight's gonna be cool. too bad im only gonna watch. im not much of a paintball playing person. so i guess that means ill be stuck with them..........pray for me. anyways................

oh yeah, the movie rocked kinda. it was more interesting watching bill on the edge of his seat with his mouth wide open........priceless. should of gotten a picture but oh well. i think it ran too long though. i like watching movies, but those darn arm-rests make things difficult........i prefer the couch........

when life gives you lemons...................

Movie Night

woo hoo! schools done for the week. and for those of you who read my xanga (even you Richard) 7:45 TONIGHT! we watch the interpreter........
Release Date: April 22, 2005
Run Time: 2 hr. 8 min.
Rating: PG-13 - violence, some sexual content and brief strong language
Cast: Nicole Kidman, Sean Penn, Catherine Keener
Director: Sydney Pollack
Genre: Drama, Suspense/Thriller
Synopsis: A United Nations interpreter overhears plans of an assassination. She then, too, becomes a target. Her only chance to thwart the plot is to convince her protector, a Secret Service agent, to believe her.

this is what the washington post says about "The Interpreter"
Teens fascinated by world affairs will find much to chew on, but thrills aren't the main course in this overwritten tale...

bring however much money you want just make sure its enough to buy your ticket and to buy me some popcorn

!!ROCK!!

School Again

Ladies and Samuel, i have an anouncement to make.



I'M ALMOST DONE WITH SCHOOL!!!!!
the tension is killing me. i am sooo ready for summer. going to the pool, lots of good movies, 90 degree weather, going out on friday night and telling my parent "Sarah and I are going out for a night of fun, ill be back later" that is what we usually call a date. man, i cant wait. but i do have to work full time but im sure ill have tons of fun over the summer.

oh, jr/sr we are definitely renting a limo to go cruisin! it's gonna be wicked awsome!!! im gonna look sharp

Green Day Rocks

I think i may have mentioned this before but i think Green Day ROCKS THE HOUSE WITH HAMTARO!!!!! ..........ahem, sorry about that. occasionally i let my emotions get the better of me and i start sreaming my head off for no reason at all.........yeah, i do that a lot.........so today i will copy an idiot

............. ......
...... ........
i clean up .......... let me re-word that....
.................. i work at a animal hospital.... .....
.......... I don't talk ......
and eye kannt speL ........so back off david.... ......



at this point the idiot would say " I wish i had inteligence like David cuz he's soooooooooooo cool and smart. and good looking too" the idiot wouldn't say the good looking part but it's true none the less.


!ROCK!

Trigun

Love and Peace. it's what we should strive for. a better world, one not tainted with greed, selfishness, and pride. a world where we let go of what we want. where we realize that its better to do something good for someone else than to wish for something good to happen to yourself. we give up our wants and desires for the greater good, something worth fighting for. a cause. to give up what I want to make someone else happy, that is what I want. to see a smile, one ive seen so many times before but somehow I never get tired of seeing it again. and if i stumble, if i fall off of that path, i wish that those closest to me would help me back up. encourage each other on our walk toward the truth in life, to find what is real. that my friends and family would learn to forgive and forget our wrongs toward each other and begin a new relationship in the truth.


Love and Peace
Vash The Stampede

I Like Watching Witch Hunter Robin

O.K.

work was soooooo boring. and those guys who are gonna grade us are coming wednesday so i better shape up at work or im gonna get in trouble. i saw a couple of wierd things today. i ate at wendys, by myself , only to find an old man pocketing sugar packets. i mean, he just took like 50 of them and shoved them in his pocket and walked out. I was about to start yelling "HEY! sugar thief, stop him!" but he was a senior citizen so i gave hem some slack. yesterday i saw (now i know this isnt really a surprise but it was funny) like 6 mexicans in one small honda civic. it was like a circus in there. and at worship tonight we made puppet animals with our hands and my hand definitely is better than bens, or samuels, or jb's...........mabye im just prideful though

fear the broom


"Because you're a witch"

Another Day In America

I love this CD (Futures-Jimmy Eat World). sometimes you find such a good CD that just like, relates to how you're feeling at the time. yup......I have some things I need to work on.
last night everyone stayed at my house. we played pool and played halo and anna and I and bill bored them to death with our final fantasy talk. we can go on for hours with that stuff........spells and names, the party pants, dropping cookies, explaining details. it gets out of hand. some people already get that side of me soooo i apologize. but the bus for church leaves at 8:45 sharp and if they arent coming they get left........

p.s. will call after church

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams-Green Day

I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known.
Don't know where it goes but it's only me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street on the boulevard of broken dreams
When the city sleeps and i'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone.
I walk alone, I walk a-

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
To live I walk alone.

Local Concerts

well, you can say im not the biggest fan of local concerts but that was kinda fun......not the concert of course. due to my dwindeling finances i was forced to drink water but more importantly, i dont think i have the stomach capacity for a pounder. and it's like incredibly hard for our cult to find its black, stawberry scented candles. or at least target doesnt have them. and ive never stayed at target past closing time but apparently they dont care if you stay late. and the employees did a good job with their sales last night. shout out to tha homies at target. have you ever raced target shopping carts before? its tons of fun. even though i lost........sorry i let you down.......but i got to see Stromecky which was a pleasent surprise. for those of you i never told, he was my succeser at BK. yep, when we left i handed over one of the paper crowns and told him "you own this store now, run it well or ill be back to kick your butt" and i havent seen him since. until last night. i bet he doesnt even work there anymore.

Samuel James Hobbs

well, i don't know. mabye it's just like........you know........like.......don't you know, it's the one that goes like "do dee do daaa" and then there's that little part where i play the thing and you cut out right there don't you know? like, i don't know........mabye........if it was just like..........you know.........like........a little more.....hmmmmm, i don't know.........it goes like, mabye just a little more of the bass and then we would be rocking.........you know?




In loving memory of Samuel James Hobbs
we will miss him so.......sniff, sniff......






I don't know, mabye like.........

How About A Normal Entry

this week has been lonely. all day i sit in my empty house thinking to myself, occasionaly doing school (i'll get it done today so you don't have to worry ) mabye watching tv, or playing games, or eating. then i go to work. then i come home. then i play games, watch tv, and eat. then i go to sleep. then i wake up.

repeat process

yep, my life in a nutshell. boring and meaningless. yesterday was hard on me though. i was in a bummed mood all day then, all of the sudden, while i was at work something happened to me that completely changed my mood.

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find that you and I collide :)

the best things come to you when you least expect it. whether it's a song, a thought, or even a beautiful lady that warms your heart. and when they come, hold on to them with all of your heart.

I Have A Dream

you know those dreams that just seem so real? the ones where something happens to you and that something just might have actually happened to you but you don't remember. it's a wierd feeling to have, waking up at 1 in the morning and you can't even remember what exactly the dream was, but you know it was bad. you think about it for the rest of the day, slowly remembering what happened in the dream but you can never remember completely. you know what was said but you don't know the reason.......so i ask, what is the purpose of these dreams? do they mean something? are they a shadow of what's to come or just a reminder of what not to do? cuz some dreams do come back. either you have the dream again or some day when you least expect it you're just walking down the road and it hits you....."i've seen this somewhere before".......like an empty thought. your mind goes blank as it tries to recall the memory, what is commonly known as deja vu. sometimes you can remember that "oh, this was a dream i had once" other times you're left with a reality that never existed. nothing more than thoughts with no meaning. so again i ask, what is the meaning? is God trying to show us something? or are our minds playing cruel tricks on us to get their laughs? agree to disagree

The Man

Have you ever been forced to do something you really don't want to do? and of course if you're in this situation there's no way out of it. there's honestly no way to just say "no i don't wanna do that" or say "I don't feel like it" because at this point in time the man really does pretty much control my life and it just drives me CRAZY!!! even if i live under his roof and he pays for my food it doesn't give him the right to just tell me how MY life is going to be run. and sure this is kinda rebelious and i know i don't have a say so in what he does but sometimes these rules of his are just absurd. drives me up a wall. man.......

off to work.

I Figured It Was Time For A New Entry

Friday sucked. i was abandoned by my friends and doomed to a life of sitting in my car conversing with my closest friend (which i enjoyed) samuel lost points on that one.

saturday rocked. that was the biggest house i have ever seen, and the athens campus isn't that cool, but they do have very loose yield signs. and my car lookes sooooo beautiful. but i think i have to break the news to olivia someday that ill have to make a choice, either her or the alternative.......and i say now i want the alternative.
you've got mail

sunday was cool. memorial service for Drew. made me sad........but i got to take pictures that night and some of em were so stupid it made me laugh. like i got a pic of samuel taking sarah powell hostage, and bill took sarah powell hostage too, and i cut samuels neck with a knife, and isaac drinks coffee, and my head is a beautiful thing, not to mention back rubs are the bomb!!!

but it's monday so im not gonna go into my "i hate school" speech again. but my moms not around so i have the week to myself.
PARTY AT DAVIDS HOUSE!!!!!!

All Goes Well In The Life Of David

Besides the fact that i don't have much money. but im definitely working full time this summer fo sho!!! which means MONEY!!! and lots of it. we pharmacy techs make a good living every once in a while. but that means the summer schedule of fun gets pushed back to only doing things on nights and weekend (just like my calling plan) but a wonderfull summer it will be.

i need to enroll for classes at UAH.......but i don't want to think of school right now......

comments?

School

And the school goes well. i get done the first week in may and i am uberly excited! but todays gonna be a long day. school, work, eating, church, and more eating. oh, and any deposits to the "give david money so he has enough cash to make it through the week" fund will be eagerly exepted. cash donations can be made in person and checks can be written out to "David Crabtree"

Thank you

A Song

Oh, what a beautiful morning
Oh, what a beautiful day
I've got this wonderful feeling
That everything's going my way

A Boring Day

well, one more boring day for the list. i think this is becoming too regular for me. same old week in week out.i do thouroughly enjoy certain parts of the week but for the most part it's the pits. i am glad that i only have one more month of school left and then a GRADUATE!!! then the fun begins !!! oh, so much to look forward too...i'm thinking i need some new material to talk about so i'm off to find myself.

there was once a great bear who said.........."think, think, think..."

I Love Saturdays

"the only place to find a Dolly Parton is at that drag club over there."

and if you ever get pickpoded remember, just SING

but i have to dig for my mom tommorow so i wont get to do anything. but mabye i can go to eat after chruch so who knows.

out

Maturity

Thank the heavens for maturity. I like it when arguments end quickly, even if it was just a farse.

Last night was awsome!!! even though watching a guy in leather pants toss sandbags around isn't really hard. i think i should definitely take up juggling, but you won't find me wearing leather pants, a pink shirt mabye...and mabye a leather jacket....leather gloves are right out. haha. and although cruisin' is kinda boring in itself, cruisin' with the right people is a lot of fun. although we didn't find the lights

all i can say is that i'm sure glad that i don't have to worry about prom