At Long Last

Looong weekend. Bible study was good as always.....somehow the group that comes always seems to get smaller.....idk why, or how

Went to the Cos-Doom party on saturday (ooooh....scary) and decided to be cheap and wear my work uniform. Hey, it's a costume, it got me into the party, it was free. More power to ya. I did not, however, enjoy being scarred for life multiple times. I think seeing Josiah in a tinkerbell costume was more than enough to corrupt all our minds.......ugh......I'm still having nightmares. did I mention i love playing kepms?

Then discovered that I'm setting a bad example for some people........I feel so ashamed. I know I stay there a lot but to go this far.......*sigh*......now I feel bad......

Then chirch on sunday, and back to the Hobbs after that. played kemps some more, some halo, and watched Final Destination 2. BOOM!

back to school....ughhh

pray for me

"You'll sit around forever if you wait for the right time. What are you waiting for? I'm here, I'm now, I'm ready, holding on tight....."

Okay, A Real Post

i've discovered that the majority of people on home infusion therapy are pen thieves.
when we deliver to these peoples homes we have them sign a paper saying that they actually did recieve their delivery. so to be kind you keep a pen with you so when you need them to sign it you have one ready for them. common kindness. but if you watch these people, you hand them the pen and say "if you can just sign here" they sign it, hand the paper back to you with a smile.....but if you watch them closely, at the same time they are silently slipping you pen into their pocket! (and i'm serious. every one of them does it!) and you can't tell a 70 year old woman "hey! gimmie my pen back!" and it's even rude to say ".....can i have my pen back please?" so it's a lose-win situation, and i lose. so i've learned to keep a steady supply of pens with me......but now that i've done that when i come to deliver these seniors have the nerve to say "can i have one of those pens?"......what am I?! a senior pen supply?!?!

i need someone with a DVD burner on their computer so i can get all these naruto episodes off my computer. they take up too much space on Aerith.....but i don't want to get rid of them....

I'm lost in a sea of papers and assignments.......please come and save me. just look for a guy lost in thought in Barnes & Nobles (I'm probably the only 18 year old with a laptop in there)

my two loves, Coffee & WiFi (or at least two of my loves)

"At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are never coming home, never coming home, could I? Should I? And all the things that you never ever told me, and all the smiles that are ever ever..."

Better Days-Goo Goo Dolls

well, i know i've been giving you nothing but songs lately but i just have to do this one.

it hits me right here.....you know....here......(that means this is a good hint as to how I feel)

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

Savin' Me-Nickelback

Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With this broken wing I’m fallin’
And all I see is you
These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Hurry I’m fallin’

Something Wrong With Me

well apparently people think there's something wrong with me.

my mom thinks i've failed college and procedes to remind me of it every hour or so. my dad (for once) says nothing. somebody i work with says that i seem preoccupied lately. like my mind's somewhere else, or I'm not all together. and just last night someone got to see one of my more angered sides. (it's probably too late to apologize, right?)

anywho, the general idea of people is that i appear to be bothered by something or someone and my guess is they want to know why I'm taking it out on them. idk though. everyone's rather vague with me. somethings they feel like telling me, some things they don't. so the question is, "how do you trust someone if they don't tell you the truth in the first place?"

so yeah, i guess you could say I'm pretty perturbed right now. if i inadvertently lash out at you or someone else in anger, i apologize in advance. i don't mean it......it's just one of those phases

The AIM Virus

an interesting thing happened yesterday. i was talking to samuel on IM and i got this "check this picture out! 'un-named link'"
hmmm
i knew about the IM virus going around (and if you dont know, talk to me, it's important) so i asked him "did you send that?" "send what?" ".......nevermind"
later on in the conversation (after samuel tried to convince me that he's not trying to infect everyones computer with the virus) i get a "'un-named link' send this too all your online friends!"
............
"what are you doing samuel?" "what do you mean?" "......nevermind"
so if you recieve some weird message like that from any of the Hobbs, DELETE IT! restart IM and continue your conversation.

that was free

GAR! I HATE PAPERS!!! AND EXAMS!!!!! EVEN IF THE TEACHER GAME US AN EXTRA WEEK TO STUDY!!!!!!!

anybody have any good books on "Human Cloning"?

"One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday"

Slacker=Me

well, i got an incredible honor last friday. avery (dont know his last name) called me up. ive only met avery once when we were at budddys house and he's the guy who kicked my butt in halo (I made a post about it) well, he called me up and said "i want you to play in a halo tournament with me"........shocked i was. i write couldnt even decent a sentence. so i said "!erus.....i mean i.....sure!"

now i skip some stuff

we got our butts kicked at halo cuz my teamates arent good. me and avery did good but we're in the process of finding two new teamates (my brother john and some guy avery's looking for) maybe in the next tournament (set for the saturday after next) we'll do better.....hopefully

sunday, church, food, chilling at the Hobbs "we dont want him to come!!!" "but he's not going to come" "then why are you inviting him?!" "cuz it's the right thing to do" "okay, then lets invite 'un-named person'" "no!" "WHY NOT?!" "cuz i dont want him to come!" "whatever happened to 'the right thing to do?" "......."

jb, you make things too difficult

cost-doom party! muahahahaha........... that's cheesy

"If everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, then we'd see the day when nobody died"

Homesick

hmmm.....i think ive hit what most people call "homesickness". i eagerly wish i had wireless internet connection at home, and a slightly more familiar house, someone to wash my dishes, make my bed when i leave, someone who cleans the house while everyone's gone, someone to wash my clothes, DIRECT TV, HALO 2, a larger variety of foods to eat, some company maybe?

you know, the basics...

good news is, my excursion is almost over (it ends this saturday), a few more days and i get to go home. yay! there will most certainly be a celebration including halo 2 and sleeping....ill skip the eating part.

currently making my way through the secondd set of exams. my math exam is tomorrow, my american government exam is tomorrow, my chemistry exam is friday, and my next essay is due soon, date tbr (to be released) woot

"When all you've got to keep iss strong, move along, move along like I know you do"

Busy, and Busier

okay, ill try to fit this post in before i have to get back to my busy schedule of school and work.

GAR! IM SOOO BUSY!!! they need to extend the time of day to at least 30 hours or something! (or life can give me a break! yes?....no?......crud)

and uhh......and common mistake. my roomate is not a girl....so to speak. she's a cat, as in not human. who in their right mind would even think it wass a girl? (*coughsamuelcough*)

now that that's cleaned up......uhhh back to school!

sorry, i really can't think of anything to say at the moment. when i have time ill get on a real post.

"There is something watching, waiting. There is something passing, casting the shadows how they make their way into my mind. And You'll sing me to sleep, You'll sing to me gently"

Living Alone

well, not much to say..........the single life (in multiple ways) is going great.

my roomate (who i named Ridley) is fine. ive been hissed at a few times, but we'll get over our differences soon. bad news is, im kinda sick. my head feels like it's gonna explode so im high (but sleepy) on nyquil right now........uuuuuuugh

"This is the one thing, the one thing that I know"

I Wish

I wish we all could win, I wish we all could smile, I wish we all could make our mothers proud.


Someday, you'll come around

How Did I Forget To Tell You All This?

i am temporarily moving! that's right, for the next week and a half (starting thursday) i will be living by myself in my own house!!! or at least someone elses house that i'm borrowing. i will be staying at my aunts house in madison for a while watching her house and her cat while she's on her cruise.

and also! im getting a new car!!! my car's gonna cost too much to fix this time around so we decided it was time for her to go.........*sniff*.............

5 hours of crying

but im getting a Ford Explorer....brown....big.....bad.....uhhh.......bawsome?

all who go to my church should see it. and others will see with time.

ceremony for Tara will be held October the 10th 12:00pm.....destination unknown

"Maybe we should shake 'em up a bit?"

Nothing To Say

boy, there really is nothing to say.......
except

FALL BREAK!!!!

i get to wake up in the morning and bum around until work oh yeah

making my way through "Radiata Stories"......slow and easy

taking Tara in to get fixed wednesday, she'll be out until at least thursday, possibly friday or later.....

"This is how I choose to live, as if I'm jumping off a cliff knowing that you'll save me, knowing that You'll save me"

Haloage

well, people keep asking me "how did the open house go?" but honestly guy/girls, i dont know! i wasnt there for it! it was just some people who came to look at our house (and i dont even know if anybody came to look at our house) but, be praying that we can sell the house, i'd like to move into town....

and nobody's gonna get this but.....(and forgive me if i spell the names wrong)
"okay, so i'm mufasa, you're rafiki, he's simba...who does that make him?"
"steve"
"yeah, and don't forget the staff, the pea shooter, the slaughter, the coconuts, and the blam"
"DELTA SQUAD'S COMING UP THE RAMP! AND SIMBA'S PURRING WITH THE BLAM AND THE PEA SHOOTER!!!"

crazy people

new game, kinda childish (not as much as "Star Ocean") and very slow story progression

"With diligence I have been blessed"

A Question

A question was raised last weekend. if you could describe yourself in 1 (one) word or phrase, what would that be? now, naturaly, this is a rather unfair question. anybody who rates themself will try to make themselves look better than they truly are (I.E. samuel said "cool" and nathan said "in-humanly-strong"). but besides that point, i described myself as "deceptive" or "persuasive" as I am that way......
seriously
well, what really struck me was this, that night at the jam while we were eating, the question was raised again. i called luke a "conformer" and i called samuel "late" but the chelsea adams (who was with us at the time) described me as "cold-hearted".........now i don't know if i was offended because she doesn't know me that well, or if i was impressed because.......well.....that's true.

anywho, that was free.

Aerith did something rather funny last night. we figured out the reason why i fight so many laggy people on Halo is because i have my laptop beside me when i play. the internet i use when im downloading or using IM while im playing Halo causes the lag......so i was the cause, not other people.
so while i was playing yesterday i turned Aerith off (usually i just put her to "sleep", so i don't have to go through the process of turning her back on again) but when i turned her back on my preferences, my settings.......they were all reset! somehow, my computer completely reset itself when i turned it off. luckely all my document and applications were still there (that wouldve been a lot of Naruto down the drain) but i spent the rest of the night fixing my settings back the way they were.

"hey guys! hurry up!!! it's time to destro........i mean.....save the world!"

today will be spent cleaning our house cuz we have a open house on sunday. if you want to come see our house the cleanest it will ever be (or buy it, either way) it's this sunday 2-4.
idk why im saying this.......

my boring weekend is almost over!

"Take me in to the Holy of Holies. Take me in by the blood of The Lamb"